Saturday, November 01, 2003

are u mad cos im askin u 21 questions?

posted by: jae @ 7:37 AM


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watched ong bak today.quite nice.on my way back.was thinkin of this incident happenin quite recent again.is it tt i have given too much eveyrtime and don ask anything in return.should i make how i feel obvious even when i feel i shdl control myself.was super pissed ytd durin trianin.cos of something relatin to this also las.was like contemplatin to train with miss chan or cathigh.cos somehow i feel tt trainin sucked.i wanna improve nxt yr.i wanna do well nxt yr.its my last year.i don wanna regret.i wan a freakin medal tts not frm the school.i wan to get into the freakin relay team.tts what i came hc for.i tot i could get into the team this yr.but i was too freakin slow.whats the use of trainin if ppl who don train can improve.and ure stuck at some shit timing.maybe cos im stagnant liaos.i regret not trianin hard when i was in sec 1 n 2.when i cld haf imrpoved leaps n bounds.back to the main topic.or whatever it is.im close to my limit of taking.of following ppl's way.ill leave all this shit behind if i have to.b selfish if i have to.im about to break.

posted by: jae @ 7:19 AM


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Wednesday, October 29, 2003

hahas.suddenly so mani stupid tots floatin in mie head.think something wrong with my head laios.been sleepin like a pig the past few days.sleep eat sleep.that has been like my daily routine.trainin started laios.hopefully can gain 2 more kg of muscles.hahas.den can reach mie ideal weight.realised tt im havin more pimples now as compared to sec sch.and like once it disapppears aft awhile it comes bak again.bahh.i tink next time i wanna do a job regarding the brain.how to understand it and physco urself.so that u can do wonders.hahas.yet i wish i can b some inventor who can invent some medcine tt can prolong life.so tt i can spend more time with my parents.i duno whie but the tot of my parents leaving me has been increasingly common in my head lately.esp this yr.when i was small i used to "hate" them once in awhile but this yr i havent.im like so afriad they'll leave me.i reallie won know what to do.at times i tell myself to cut back on my spending.so that my dad won work so much.but the urge to splurge jus won stop.i jus hope that they will live longer den me.and tt i can get some super gd job and b rich enuf to let them enjoy the later years of their lifes.i reallywish it will be this way.god pls bless them to be in the pink of health for a long long time.amen.

posted by: jae @ 6:12 AM


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