Tuesday, November 07, 2006
hmm.was brought down to reality today.as much as i wanted to noe the aftermath of the interview but i feared the truth as well.constantly telling myself that i would get it i would get it.eventually just seeing my co walk away from pengyu,my dreams also went away with him. Its hard to disguise the disappointment although im glad for pengyu. He really deserved the award.yeah maybe i hadn't done enough to deserve something.or i tot i did so.yeah. Suddenly questions like would i still stay after my bond has ended surfaced.I don even dare to think more about my future, about staying in a condominium instead of a hdb blah blah.im really questioning God why but i believe he has his reasons.
O Lord Let It Be Your Will Be Done And Not Mine . . .
really and finding a million good reasons not to feel down.-sigh-
posted by: jae @ 5:39 AM
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