Saturday, December 13, 2003
eh yy i put ur link liaos hor.don say don haf.lols.
posted by: jae @ 7:17 PM
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im suppose to b more wise n mature when i grow older.but tt doesnt seems to b tt case.i feel tt im becomin more impatient.more easily irritated den ever.paiseh zh i swore at u jus now.jus somehow i let it fly.felt quite bad aft tt.arghs.its like theres so much emotions inside u.n u duno wth is goin on.why cant u jus decide on one tt kidna thing.why must there b so mani thoughts.some which are especially redundant.why cant i b a robot.one who cant feel.one whos programmed to do this do tt.blahs.niwae well done man u.kicked man citys ass well.
im startin to trip.im losing my grip.and im in this thing alone
posted by: jae @ 7:51 AM
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Wednesday, December 10, 2003
mmm.relectin bak on my past few posts ah.i feel tt i shldnt grumble so much.my life is so much betta den some ppl.what more can i ask for?i got a nice family.frens whom i can trust.im in a gd sch.as long as i don side track theres a chance tt i will have a good career.maybe im too spoilt la.hahas.if things aint goin my way and i cant haf it my way.ill grumble until its my way.but i tink reality won gif way to me.hahas.niwae trainin is great.slowly gettin bak my fitness.alto im still super weak.tink im goin to train like 5 times a week frm nxt week ahs.even losin to the gurls in condtionin.super throw face.hahas.niwae peeps are comin over ta mie house soon.hahas.betta go prepare prepare.lols.i long for a ps2!!!!
posted by: jae @ 8:34 PM
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Monday, December 08, 2003
tink i sufferin frm depression.jus read thru some email.i tink im not considered for relay team nxt yr la.all this dream of reducin my time to below 12.makin it to the relay team blah blah.how the hell is allt his goin to happen if my runnin is still like shit.argh..world of lies.wtf are we motivatin ourselves to continue another day when we noe tt another day is never goin to b better.less stressfree.its hard to b a father.its hard to b a parent.i feel quite bad @ this age im stil like not veh independant.not veh matured.actin liek some pampered kid.arhgs.fuck.let me tell u what life will b in the next erm.50 yr plus?ull haf to go ns.n get tortured.alto its beta den studyin.den aft tt.hafta go university n mug again.oh wait first.can i get into one not wit this screwd up grades of mine.7 pointer havin this kinda grades.abit the good eh?den universtiy
got so mani shit degrees must take.master doctorate blah blah.aft tt.hafta worry whetehr u can get a job?whetehr the pay is good?whether ull get fired.den u hafta get married.haf kids.worry abt supportin the fmaily.worry abt whether ur kids will go the wrong way.worry this worry tt.den when ure old n cant work animore.ull hafta ponder.will mie son throw me into the old folks home.will i get any cancer or any shit illness.i see my dads fren.alreadi 50 close to 60.stil hafta worry abt his fuckin son.still hafta work even thou he has soem kinda illness.wth.will i b such a loser son.i hope not.wtf.toms mie burthday.n i aint excited at all.tink im sufferin frm depression.
posted by: jae @ 6:45 AM
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hmm.birthday sucks.tts all i can say.sighhhh.it sucks to grow up.really.
posted by: jae @ 5:42 AM
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